awkward momentos..

most of the time we are not aware of our surroundings. we tend to take things for granted and pay less attention to bits and pieces and that lead to disastrous momentos. when we finally realize it, it was already too late...

...and that is really hard once we are trying to hard...

he was there in my dreams and he was smiling at me..
he didn't say a word but the smile on his lips was comforting and pleasant in a very meaningful way..
i long to have a conversation with him just to hear his voice..
but it is most unlikely to happen..
he has left us all two days before the Tsunamis..

i've grown up having him around and had been so clingy to him
having him trying to comfort me with his soothing words will automatically calm me down..
he was the man i can really rely on

i long to have him around..

May he rest in peace...

the reliability and assurance

a strong connection,
words that confuse people a lot and at the same time bring peace once it is achieved.

So, here comes December.. the most long awaited month!

Yes! A long break from the hustles and bustles of the school, The Malaysia so called 'Saving Sale', the incredibly colorful shopping complexes with an amazing amount of RM spent on the 'amazing deco', more movies, and yes going back to hometown for Christmas!! That is the best part in fact! The dressing up, the noises made by crazy, talkative sisters, a stunned brother who doesnt know what to do and what to say when all her sisters are around..heheh..he finally has a company now that hubby is around ;)..and mum will be busy nagging and scolding (well, she got to do it once a year only now that everybody is away-working and studying) heheh...dad will be trying hard to please everyone..heheh..that's the time where he wants to fulfill all his childrens' crave!

Believe it or not, mum's nagging is what i miss the most! you have no idea how much i hated it! But, yes there is a but! Now that i am away, i misses that! and i feel kinda weird at first but that is the way it is! Nobody, in any way can replace her! She is the most amazing mum and knowing mothers, they just got to do it! u know the usual stuff-nagging, scolding, punishing and etc.. however, by the end of the day, when u get to look at her old, wrinkle face, u perfectly realize that she is doing all that because she loves you and she wants to provide the best for you, to get you ready for the world!

and dad's serious talk about the future, what to do with your life and his patience for listening to all the complaints, events that had happened throughout the year which will be accumulated to a night of 'misery' for him! i shouldn't make it sounds that bad! Well, that is the time when everybody is catching up with the latest news, current and past events, and of course gossips! hehehe.. Dad gossips? well not really.. he is gonna say 'ssshhh', look at yourself first before you talk about other people! heheh..

there is nothing much changes except everybody is getting older... ehmmm..

and something amazing happen today, yes 'The Smiling Moon'!! I can't believe i actually saw it but it was really beautiful with the 2 stars (the eyes) and the moon which looks like a lips smiling... and it was really mesmerizing...