2010

Thanks to Him that i finally manage to stay blogging up til 2010. Something which is unimaginable and sounds rather impossible to do. The reasons why it is manageable is because i can finally freely jotting down without having the 'fear' of expressing it.

The starting of this year hasn't change much in comparison to previous year. Nothing to look forward to and life's been rather monotonous. However, i've been noticing things. A lot of things happening around me and i just couldn't really grab all of it but just the gist. It is pervasive and nothing seems to be able to stop it. It is scary and i was just speechless upon hearing it. But things had been really weird and people in general seems to lost their inner sensitivity. Things were taken lightly and future that they hold are looking rather bleak. I am not being judgemental but it is what happening now. yes. Bitter facts!

Why is it happening?

i couldn't answer it myself. I tried to mend things. To help out. But after 1 BIG TIME FAILED ATTEMPTS i think i rather stop suggesting and finding ways to solve the problem and help out. It just doesn't work out. It gets me into a rather awkward situation and i guess i am not doing the right thing. I can be a good listener i guess but not a good helper. sigh~

I probably better shut my mouth up from this moment on rather than acting like someone who is full of idiotic suggestions that i end up looking like a so called brilliant wannabes which is a dumb fool. sigh~

The cycles has come back to haunt me. It has always been like that. I should have learn my lesson. And not be too showy as it has again got me into trouble.
I should also not be selfish and will not make people hoping. Sigh~

What a way to start a year..i have ruined everything which has been beautifully progressing.

May Allah show me the way to make it right...