aNother rebound?

Been a little depressed lately. It was all because of the little incident upon stumbling the information which i am not supposed to know unless i ask for it. it had led to 3 consecutive depressing days of misery and ultimate ignorance! I have to learn to accept the bitter truth and obviously there is nothing can be done but to move on and improve the situation. Ironically, knowing how things are done had really puts me down. I have never been so disappointed and it has already hit me really hard in the head.

I need to be distracted from all this. I had decided to focus on something more important. Something that i had neglected for quite sometimes. I finally realizes that all this while i was giving excuses all along. Well, i have my own personal reasons. I guess all i need is the right time. And this is it. I should seriously consider doing it as my number one priority rather than procrastinating it again.

After two days, i began to enjoy the whole process of learning. I do have fear in me. Plus being extra-ordinarily critical as in doing the compare and contrast. Perhaps i had been trained in such a way that it has been ingrained in me. So far, things are looking good and i feel good. :)

Thinking too much about something might not bring me anywhere. i guess this is another rebound to happen. If this is what life is all about...i would say it is a very tiring way of living a life (speaking at the very moment of depression).